Big Ole' Can of Crazy

That's basically what describes my current state. Not a little can, though..just to be clear. Let me start from the beginning... oh yeah..and note very importantly that I am definitely NOT pregnant since that's the conclusion everyone jumps to first. Also this is not the Reader's Digest version of my week.

On last Monday on my day off I decided that the best meal plan for that particular day would include one very large very questionably old piece of pizza and dairy. And later it turned out that the milk I had been drinking that day was expired. So about 3am Tuesday morning my body decided to tell me how much it hated me for that. I never got back to sleep and ended up going to work anyways even though I was miserable. I rode the bus and about half way there I almost had to have the bus driver pull over so I could get off and vomit. I didn't, though. Then I got to work and found out that my super awesome boss...the only reason I still work at Office Depot...is being transferred to a different store. This comes at a bad time as I had to cut back my hours at the museum since I am only allowed to work a certain number of hours per year and I'm already getting close to my limit and the end of my 'year' isn't until January 11. This means that I probably have to take a month or two off of working at the museum and pick up Office Depot full time (if I work over the allotted number of hours at the museum the payroll system automatically fires me). BUT now my super awesome boss is gone from Office Depot. Don't get me wrong, there are still some really cool people that work there, but when the boss is not cool it makes it a lot harder to be happy. The new guy they are replacing my boss with has never been an Office Depot store manager before. He had some Best Buy stores he was at before--but that means that he's used to working with like 20 employees at the same time...not just a small handful of 5 or 6. He has the unrealistic expectations (that include punishments) of a crew of 20, though. He's also already shown that he has no problem yelling at employees for really dumb reasons. Yup! Sounds like an awesome new working environment is in the makes. I'm seriously contemplating following my now former boss to his new store, but it would be a commuting nuisance.

Back on topic....I managed to do a little bit of crying in front of all the managers in the district that happened to be at the store when I found out my boss was leaving...so that was wonderful...then I almost fell on my way out of the store very nice and embarrassing like in front of everyone too...also awesome. The crying had a lot to do with me feeling like crap and having been up since 3am and having no sleep and the odd attachment to my boss I have formed these last couple of years. Then I went up to the museum where I was met with our yearly chocolate fair. Basically we lure the incoming freshman into the museum with chocolate and then try to show them how awesome the museum is. Also there is chocolate so we're just working the psychology angle and giving them happy associations with the museum. At this point I really hadn't eaten anything this day since I was so nauseous so I was like...chocolate! yay! life isn't so bad anymore. I waited in line at the chocolate fountain where there were trays of rice crispy treats and cookies and graham crackers and other fun things to dip into chocolate. By the time I got to the front of the line the only thing left to dip into the chocolate was pretzels. I HATE pretzels!! It was traumatic.

After working at the museum I went out to dinner with Reid and his classmates as they were celebrating the finishing of their first year talks. I hitched a ride to the park and ride with Reid rather than taking the bus. I started feeling really sick about half way home. Almost opened his door at the drive through at Jack in the Box to vomit on the beauty bark. I didn't. Got to the park and ride and almost did it again as I went from his car to mine. I didn't. Driving home was special as I had the same feeling come over me except this time I was operating a vehicle. No incident.

Worked at 6am on Wednesday and only had a half day so I went home at around 11am. Reid didn't have class that day so he made us some eggs. Then a half hour later we were still hungry so we had hamburgers. I had two. Then I fell asleep on the couch for like...6 hours? Reid told me I was being a useless human being. I told him that I was going to tell everyone what he said and make sure it was out of context. So there it is. When I woke up it was still pretty late and I was not hungry at all so I didn't eat.

Thursday morning I was still feeling really barfy without the actual barfing and so I couldn't do my usual reading on the bus which doesn't start the morning out great. When I got to Office Depot I did a bunch of dry heaving. I spent a lot of time hovering over trash cans for that particular shift. Then I went up to the museum and managed to not do any of the dry heaving, but still felt really bad. I actually left work early. I never do that. My boss at the museum thinks I'm overworking myself--which is probably true, but what's a girl to do when you need to pay the bills.

Friday I worked a half day at Office Depot and then went with Reid to do all of his miscellaneous errands he needed to run before leaving for Taiwan. I was feeling a little better, but had moved into a feeling light headed and dizzy. We also learned that the pills I had been taking earlier in the week to help me feel better expired 04/04. I really just wasn't meant to be healthy. I can only blame my own stupidity.

Saturday I was feeling nauseous all day and developed a weird feeling that I could only describe as a lump at the bottom of my throat. I think there's a lymph node or something down there. Blah! Then I took a 48 minute lunch and talked to Chrissy and we diagnosed that I'm just crazy and that I've probably just been having a prolonged anxiety attack due to all the things that have kind of happened all at once. I tend to have a lot of separation anxiety and with Reid going to Taiwan and my boss leaving...and all the what am I going to do for a living thoughts going on; it wouldn't be too much of a stretch. Basically yesterday and today I've just been antsy and I have the same exact feeling I would get right before I would do a very important presentation--except there's no presentation. Usually right after a presentation I instantly feel better, but since there's no 'event' that I'm dreading or having anxiety over I don't know when I'm going to be feeling better. I think honestly I feel a little better just being fairly certain that most of it is in my head. I know it started out as a real illness, but then progressed into me making myself sick for other reasons. Go me!

Saturday when I left the museum I went back to work at Office Depot for an hour. I always enjoy sandwiching the museum shift between two Office Depot shifts. When I went home I spent at LEAST 1 hour scrubbing all the dishes Reid left me in the sink before he left just so that I could put them in the dishwasher. Then I convinced myself that since I already had a sponge that I should go and clean out the shower which took about a half hour. After that I ate some dinner and passed out on the couch.

Sunday was supposed to be my day off, but instead I volunteered to work the museum's annual Bug Blast event. It's a lot of fun, but crazy busy for us. We had over 1000 people in and it is our second busiest day of the year (after Dino Day of course). We had a bug chef in who did 3 different cooking demonstrations. He also has a cookbook. There were lots of bugs to be eaten that day by all. Not me, though. A lot of bug experts come in and set up tables with live bugs (tarantulas, stick bugs, millipedes and creepy beetles, etc.) and dead bugs that are on pins from our collections. Also we always have a big section of plants that eat insects (venus fly traps, etc.). A bunch of arts and crafts stuff for the kiddies. Learning is fun. Tomorrow is my one day off this week so hopefully my body will just chill out and I will be a normal person to return to work on Tuesday! Reid called me at around 3pm and left me a message nagging me to keep my phone with me especially on my days off. When he goes over oceans I guess he forgets when I tell him I'm working. Tsk tsk. And of course since I was already working on my day off I decided to also work at Office Depot before hand. Yeah...I am crazy.

Pointing out the obvious this is a long post. I'd be surprised if anyone gets through it. No pictures or anything. You're welcome!

Oh and something funny I saw when I was driving home from work today was a gentleman walking across an intersection in a cross walk (he had the white 'go' signal). A car turning left almost hit him. I guess the guy in the cross walk saw this coming because he was ready. As the car passed in front of him at very close range and crosswalk guy spit this MASSIVE loogie onto his back window. I thought this was hilarious! Good for crosswalk guy. Kind of gross...ok, really gross, BUT the driver of the car almost hit him! He wasn't keying the guy's car or anything and a loogie isn't permanent damage, but it made a point. Little bits of justice in the world. End post.